a constant constriction
positioned where I cannot see
where I cannot know
which leades to hyper-awareness, constant thought
and question focused inward
I feel week
I feel confused
I am sensitive
I want so badly to curl up
yet I am restricted to my right side.
I wonder what is festering of growing inside of me,
In this moment I do not feel whole
let me say that the physical pain is not excruciating or unbearable but the mental effects are deafening.