Old enough to know I wanted it, but I didn't know what it was. No one had ever revealed it to me in the shadows, behind some trees. No one had ever set me on his lap and let it rise, like a blister. It didn't brush against my hands secretly in the train station crowds. One night, it grew large in the back of my mind and reeked of spoiled peaches. I woke up panting with the scent of it all around me. It was my cricket tongue, trembling and blue in front of the world. Pontoon #2,Seattle, WA: Floating Bridge Press, 1998. |