Wasteoid.
I am sorry I get so personal in these forum discussions but I do think that it is important. On page 90 Hikey speals about art and drug culture, and discusses the different types of drugs and there stereo types and what they have done for the artist. "Heroin has produced some great jazz and some ever greater writing, amphetamine culture has cranked out zillions of good country songs, lots of hot rods, tons of high fashion and some very shiny art, thanks but no thanks to cocaine we have Rambo flicks, disco, and Freudian analysis. I would suggest, the artifacts are less products of the subculture than byproducts of its members maintain their habits, their rushes and their elite lifestyles." (90) This brought some questions to my head. So some artist make heroin look glamorous or hell any drug, then some make any drug look depressing. Like Bukowski for example every one loves him in this totally unglamorous way, but half his writing is about his depressing gambling and drinking problems. So seeing some fashion designer or Keith Richards do a line of blow off of a golden bar looks glamorous and really fun but reading about Bukowski taking a sip of a floater at a dive bar, carrying his girlfriend up the stairs who pissed herself drunk or watching Hendrix choke on his vomit is disgusting. But Hendrix had to puke on his Vom and Bukowski would suck if he didn't drink and Keith Richards I'm sure could afford to let you do lots of his drugs off of golden bars and would make you feel like a rock star and it would be really fun (for a little while). So this chapter reminded me of my friend Fletcher, on my brothers 21st birthday afterwards we were sitting around talking before the sun comes up and Fletcher is trying to convince us that if he went away for a while and did a bunch of heroin it would help him write a really good book and my brother and I were laughing our asses off at him and Fletcher gets all defensive and is now embarrassed about this comment and when we tease him about it 2 years later tries to convince us the conversation never existed. But it did and I wonder if Fletcher found some heroin hook up in some random town or even city and spent a year writing a book whether or not it would be good or not, what kind of book I don't know? Maybe if he wrote about all the crazy fucked up shit his life would experience being addicted to heroin it would be a good book- but then he might as well meet a heroin addict talk to him about it for a while try it once and then live vicariously through him and exploit it (kind of exaggerate like little tiny pieces ) But then still it would probably be boring because I'm sick of books about drug addictions. It depends on the person- I have recorded myself playing music drunk before and laughed my ass off and also have woken up the next morning and felt cheated with my guitar lying next to me and this recording or lyric I don't remember writing. I got all emotional and drunk doing my installation last quarter and took some Jameson's shots for my old homies. it was awesome but he material was already created. taking drugs to create is kind of like cheating I think. I think about this kind of often and used to a lot more- if you can't paint well or think of a good idea for a painting or whatever when you're sober than what's your deal- but then again if you're just a wasteoid who doesn't come up with any good ideas and just sits around wasted when your wasted then you suck- so i guess it's better to be a wasteoid who comes up with good ideas. but then again if you're always wasted and still producing and just happen to be always wasted kudos. yeah- i forgot about those addiction things. ah.
ok bye.
