A Tale for the Time Being
As A Tale for the Time Being starts out, we are introduced to the young and friendly Nao, a girl who writes to us – and to Ruth, of course – from at least two years back in time, when she and her family are at their lowest possible point.
As the story progresses, we learn how to be time beings, if only for the time being, and we learn that we have always been a time being, right alongside Nao.
But Nao’s time is limited – that’s much of what the first portion of the book seems to be about in my eyes. Nao and her limited time, even if Nao herself is the one limiting it. There’s a line early on in the book that sets the framework for the entirety of her chapters.
“Emma Goldman wrote an autobiography called Living My Life that Jiko is always trying to get me to read, but I haven’t gotten around to it yet because I’m too busy living my life or trying to figure out how not to.” (Ozeki, pg 69)
Though obvious that Nao wanted to write about the great-grandmother that she adored unconditionally, I believe the start of her tale was also a way that she was trying very hard not to live her own life. Instead she immersed herself in the life of Jiko Yasutani, who believed women could be strong and were mistreated, but still had a good heart of her own and compassion regardless of who or what you are. Jiko was unimaginably kind, and I believe that Nao wanted very much to be the kind of woman that her great-grandmother was, as opposed to the Nao Yasutani that was picked on regularly in school. We see the dark side to Nao’s life immediately; Nao wants to be something, anything other than Nao, and it doesn’t take us long to understand why that might be the case. She becomes obsessed with the idea of suicide, largely in part at first because of her father. They say that having a relative attempt or commit suicide increases the risk of you yourself attempting it. (more info here)
In this way, Ruth is much the antithesis of Nao. Nao found comfort in the countryside, while Ruth felt more stifled; where Nao was uneasy because of the people who lived in the bigger area, Ruth found life in a big city relatively easy to deal with. From the start of the book, Ruth and Nao are set up as opposites Nao spends the majority of the book trying to find her place in the world, while Ruth already has her own. While their circumstances were significantly different and understandable in all regards, this is an important thing to keep in mind.
I felt further evidence revealed itself as the book went on, and while Nao’s life grew more chaotic, Ruth’s life began to make less and less sense as time went on. She had dreams that seemed to influence Nao’s journal and her life, her memory began to act up. She began to have an existential crisis, wondering if perhaps she wasn’t real at all, and maybe Nao had just written her into existence. By the end of the book this becomes even more of an issue when Nao (alongside her father) seems to choose life instead of death after the death of Jiko and finding the journal that belonged to Haruki #1. While Nao chooses life, Ruth becomes even more uncertain of her place in the world. She finds less and less comfort in her conversations with Oliver, to the point that he needs to tell her that she’s being irrational about her assumptions, and if she’s going to continue thinking about something so out there that she should at least be somewhat logical about it instead of basing it on information that doesn’t really exist.
Nao finally finds her place in the world, and in a way Ruth loses hers. Stability is replaced with instability, and stability is replaced with instability.
As for the ending, I think there are a few different things that Ruth could be. One of the first – and perhaps more logical – might be that her dreams and memory issues were in fact an unfortunately early onset of Alzheimer’s. This could account for a number of things, but I think in a world such as this, for time beings such as Ruth and Nao, that this explanation is a bit too simple.
In that way, I think the next best possibility would be that Ruth was, in essence, a time being. I think that what she was didn’t really matter a great deal, because she had all she needed to be a time being, even if her time was built in a different way than someone else’s might be. She could be a creation of Nao’s, but does it matter?