Interdisciplinary Psychology:

Great post Adam! I really admire your emotional integrity and that you take responsibility for your feelings.  Your post reminds me that we need relationships for our own spiritual growth.  One of my favorite Buddhist stories is about the yogi who goes out to the mountains to meditate on patience.  A nomad crosses his path and asks what he is doing out there all alone.  The yogi tells the nomad he is meditating.  The nomad asks what he is meditating about.  The yogi tells him "patience."  The nomad starts to leave, then turns and yells out to the yogi, "You got to hell!"  The yogi asked, "Why did you say that to me?"  The nomad replied, "You're supposed to be meditating on patience!"