Forgiveness  

            I struggled terribly with this exercise. I just couldn’t think of any one person that I would like to “forgive” for what they have done. I can’t stand the fact that we live in a world of victims and that everybody perceives themselves as the victim and never the perpetrator. I’m in no way suggesting that this exercise isn’t useful, but I just didn’t have any obvious person to forgive. In an effort to still use the idea of forgiveness, I altered the activity slightly.

My EMP experience was really great. I was very optimistic even before the field trip had even started. I had been to the EMP before but it had been quite awhile since I had gone.  Which made this trip seem almost new. I started the day off by getting up and looking outside to see what the weather looked like and to see if I needed a jacket, I couldn’t tell by just stepping outside so I checked the weather report and it said it would be sunny and warm, so I went with a semi warm outfit of a vest and long sleeved shirt. Then I headed to Starbucks to get my day kick started.                          From Starbucks I headed strait to school, I got there just as every one was starting to decide where they were going to sit, I jumped on it and got in the back of the bigger van with the majority of the class.

A beautiful day  When I started this assignment the first thing I did was think about what would my percent beautiful day actually entail. After thinking about it long and hard I decided it would be just about anything with my girlfriend. My day started off with sleeping in late with my girlfriend, reading, talk and hanging out in bed till we wanted to get out of bed.  Then we went and had a huge breakfast in a nice restaurant, the works eggs, bacon and hash browns. After breakfast we spent the afternoon on a drive around the Olympia cost and outer laying areas one of the nicest drives I’ve done in the awhile.

 Forgiveness

Over the past year I have been focusing on coming to terms with my past, which has involved forgiving the wrong that I felt had been done to me. For this activity I was not able to go through the process again because I guess you could say I am up to date on my forgiving, but I still feel close to the process of forgiving my daughters father so I will write about that.

            Recalling the hurt was easy for me, I was unable to deny the hurt because it was an everyday part of my life (my daughter), but I did suffer from stomach ulcers and extreme anxiety for over 2 years until I was able to finally accept the reality of the situation and stop blaming myself for the entire situation.